Pain of Memory
by Aimless
Chapter 10 - An Interlude
I kept my eyes closed. I thought it would be easier that way. I could try and keep this act separate from the maelstrom of emotions that were tearing me up inside. This was just sex I kept telling myself. I had to remain detached because if I gave in to everything that I was feeling I’d fall apart. Chloe and Aya’s hands drifted over my body with barely there caresses. I bit my lip to keep in a groan as fingers traced a line down my chest to my belly button. I shifted restlessly as soft hair brushed against my cheek and a warm mouth nipped at my neck.
“Ken open your eyes and look at us.” Aya’s voice flowed over me like warm honey. I shivered at its low husky tone.
I wanted to ignore his whispered plea but I was literally helpless to deny him anything. Still I wanted to stay content in the darkness behind my eyelids. A place where I had only to live in the moment and give in to the demands of my lovers. I gasped as a tongue flicked my nipple teasing it to a hardened little nub. My hands grasped the bed sheets as that same mouth pressed hot, wet, open mouthed kisses back up my chest. Chloe I guessed lingered to suck sharply at the little hollow at the base of my throat. He liked to mark me and know that I was carrying proof of his desire under my clothes.
“Open your eyes. I want to see them go hazy with lust as we show you how much you mean to us.” Chloe’s soft voice tickled my ear as he mouthed the warm skin beneath.
How could I deny them this? I would be lying to myself if I said I did not want their attention either. Part of me craved their hands and mouths on me but part of me also wanted to punish myself by pushing them away. I did want to please Aya and Chloe so I took a deep breath and opened my eyes.
Aya was kneeling over me and he smiled as I looked up. God was there anything more beautiful then my red haired lover giving free reign to his emotions? Yeah there was and he was busily sucking on my neck. Chloe raised his head and licked his lips. He was sin incarnate and knew it.
“You have beautiful eyes Ken.” Chloe murmured as he kissed each eyelid.
I couldn’t help but laugh in disbelief. “Yeah right. My eyes are the color of dirt. Have you two looked in a mirror lately? I can hardly compete with your incredible baby blue eyes Chloe and your deep purple ones Ran.”
Aya reached up and grabbed my chin. His fingers pressed in slightly and his eyes narrowed a bit. Great I annoyed him by telling the truth.
“I don’t want to EVER hear you put yourself down again! Is that clear?” He looked so incensed on my behalf that it startled me.
“But Ran compared to you two I’m just…” Incredibly his scowl deepened.
“Don’t you dare say you’re plain! But even if you were I would still love you. It’s YOU that I’m attracted to…the whole package. Not just your face or your body.” Aya took a few deep breaths and let go of my chin trying to regain his temper. It seemed I was not the only one having control problems.
“You really sell yourself short you know. I’ll admit I’m more drawn to outward beauty than Ran is. Yes it makes me shallow.” Chloe paused to laugh and I couldn’t help thinking then why did you choose me? I knew better than to voice that insecurity.
“Chloe you’re not helping.” Aya shook his head in exasperation.
“Oh but I am because I happen to think Ken Ken is gorgeous. Plus your eyes are the perfect shade of melted chocolate. They are so expressive especially when we are fucking you.” A snort of disbelief slipped out which earned me twin glares.
“You are so don’t deny it. Plus I’m going to show you. Will you join me Ran? Let’s prove to Ken dear just how utterly delectable he is. Hmmm…shall we start by licking every inch of him?” I shuddered at the thought.
I was mesmerized as Chloe leaned in close to my face and kissed the tip of my nose. It was unexpected to say the least and it seemed that he was in a playful mood. Well I was resigned to let them do their worst then after maybe I’d be tired enough to get some sleep without resorting to some liquid tranquilizers.
“What do you want us to do Ken?” Aya asked me and I thought about it for a moment.
“Make me forget for a little while. Touch me, both of you until I can’t think straight.” It’s what I truly wanted. To be so thoroughly fucked that I forgot my own name.
I watched breathlessly as Aya lowered his head. It appeared that they were going to do as Chloe suggested and I sucked in a sharp gasp as they each licked a wet trail down my neck, across my collar bone to the center of my chest. Chloe leaned in closer and stole a kiss. I tilted my head up and laced my hands behind his neck. I opened under his exploratory tongue and sucked the tip into my mouth.
While we were otherwise engaged Aya traced across my pecs and flicked his tongue across one of my nipples. I moaned into Chloe’s mouth and he pried his lips off mine. I tugged wanting to continue but he pulled away and smiled.
“Ah, Ah Ken you just lie back and enjoy it. Besides Ran looks like he’s having fun. Shall I join him?” Before I could even answer Chloe had taken the other nub in his mouth and had bitten down lightly.
The sensation of wetness and the scrape of teeth sent sparks shooting through my body. I arched off the bed when they both sucked on the small discs of flesh. Their hands had also not been idle and roamed across my tanned skin. The occasional scratch of fingernails only heightened the pleasure and I was gasping as they moved on from my nipples and worked their way down my body. The saliva slick rasp of their tongues on my abdomen had me panting and when Aya sucked on the ridges of muscle as Chloe bit I cried out and twisted on the bed. Their hands held me down and the only sounds I heard were soft appreciative little moans as they explored. I was so hard I ached and my enforced celibacy over the last two weeks made me nearly wild with need. God how could I have denied myself this?
“I think he likes what we’re doing Ran. Don’t you Ken?” Chloe fingers walked downward and traced the curling brown hair that encircled the base of my erection.
Aya mouthed the soft skin around my belly button and left a moist trail to the scar that decorated my lower abdomen. He thoroughly laved the area and placed a gentle kiss on the indelible mark he’d made when he stabbed that cloned freak in the bowels of Koua Academy.
“Do you like this Ken?” Aya’s soft deep voice sent a shiver up my spine.
“Yes. Please don’t stop.” I whined as Aya slowly licked the crease from my hip bone to Chloe’s fingers which were sifting through the springy hair at my groin.
This was good…very good I had trouble focusing on anything other than what they were doing to me. There was simply no room for doubts or fears in the rising tide of lust. But I needed more and groaned loudly as Chloe’s fingers stroked up my cock and swirled in the gathered moisture there. I watched mesmerized as he offered those glistening fingers to Aya’s lips. With no hesitation at all Aya sucked them into his mouth. Chloe’s breathing sped up as our lover removed every trace of my pre-cum from those elegant digits.
“See Ken? Ran loves the way you taste.” Chloe bent for a little taste of his own and I nearly came right then. My control was shot all to hell and they were just too fucking hot to be believed. He sucked up every drip and licked his lips. “Mmmm divine.” Chloe’s cultured voice and shiny lips were like instant aphrodisiac.
Aya released Chloe’s fingers and gripped the base of my cock. My toes curled as he languidly kissed his way up my shaft.
“Do you want more?” God he can be so wicked. Asking me if I want a blowjob? Aya liked it when he made me tell him what I wanted. I knew he wouldn’t continue until I told him exactly what to do. Then he smiled at me and I knew right then I’d beg, plead and prostrate myself in front of Aya if he would consent to put his mouth on me. So much for pride or trying to push Aya and Chloe away. My libido was screaming at me to give in already damn it!
“More! Ran, Chloe please! Suck me…make me come.” It’s a good thing that I don’t really think about the things I say while in bed. Or that there is no evidence of what words tumble from my mouth. When I’m reminded later I usually stammer and turn fiery red. I prefer to disbelieve I said such things when Chloe does a credible imitation of me in the throes of passion. He even threatened to videotape us together. That rendered me totally speechless as Chloe just sat there and grinned.
Aya and Chloe both looked up at me as their hands stroked my hips. My breathing hitched in anticipation as they shared a kiss over my erect cock. They knew I’d not be able to hold still so Chloe held onto my hips as Aya lowered his mouth to me. He took the head of my dick in his mouth and ran his tongue all around the inverted V before sucking. I swear to god I saw stars and they doubled when Aya spread my legs wide and Chloe gently mouthed my sac before sucking the pouch of skin inside his mouth.
I was licked, sucked and nibbled and only a firm grip on the base of my erection kept me from coming. The sensations of a dual blowjob were indescribable and I thanked my subconscious for butting the hell out and letting me experience this with my lovers. God I think Chloe had no gag reflex at all as he took me into his mouth and slowly pressed downward until he had taken me in all the way. Aya ran his hands along my inner thighs and his fingers stroked the skin beneath my balls. I was too far gone to even realize he’d at some point gotten the lube and pressed two slick fingers against my hole. My hands were fisted in the sheets as I opened my legs like the wanton slut I was.
Around and around those fingers teased, rubbing and fluttering but not penetrating and I bit my lip to keep from begging him to go further. Aya sat back and I felt like screaming. I wanted more now!
“Turn over Ken.” Chloe sat up too and chill air brushed across my spit slick cock.
“God dammit just get on with it!” I hated being frustrated and the more time I was without their hands on me the more time I had to think why this was a bad idea. I frowned as they both grinned at me.
“Oh we promise to make it worth your while Ken Ken.” I sighed and rolled over onto all fours. It was a position I was not too overly fond of. I liked to look at Aya as he fucked me.
I took back all my negative thinking when Aya stroked my ass and parted my cheeks. His hot tongue licked down my crack and wetly pushed inside. I bucked backwards and moaned loudly as he pressed as far inside as he could. This was so wildly erotic and I looked over my shoulder to see Chloe drizzle the flavored lube we liked above Aya’s fluttering tongue. My dick throbbed with every inward push and I realized Aya was working the lube in with his mouth.
“Are you ready for Ran to fuck you Ken?” I was shuddering and moaning and it took a moment before Chloe’s question even registered.
“Y…Yes!” I managed to stutter. Chloe crawled around in front of me and pulled me upright so I was kneeling with my legs spread wide on the bed. He placed my arms around his neck and nuzzled my cheek.
“Ken are you sure you want this?” Aya asked and whether I did or not I was too far gone to protest. It would be cruel to stop now. But even then I had to admit I did want this no matter the consequences.
“Yes Ran just don’t stop. Don’t either of you dare leave me!” I felt slick fingers again probing and making sure I was well lubed.
Then Aya was behind me pressed up against my back. He wound his arms around my chest as Chloe reached between us to spread me wide. I hissed as the blunt head of Aya’s cock nudged my opening. I gripped Chloe’s shoulders as Aya pushed slowly and steadily inside. I panted and closed my eyes as he filled me completely. It had been a while and this unfamiliar position pushed him so deep inside me. Chloe’s hands rested on my hips as I sank further into Aya’s lap. I couldn’t help it…I groaned and shifted uncomfortably.
“Ken are you alright?” Aya’s warm breath gusted over my neck as he tried to wait for me to adjust.
It was a bit painful but it helped to drive away the deeper anxieties, guilt and fears I’d been suffering. I needed this. I needed Aya and Chloe surrounding me.
“Ah…Ah yeah. I’m ok just wait Ran. I want you in me but just give me a second.” Chloe and Aya held me in their arms and I could feel Aya shaking with the effort to let me adjust. I took a few deep breaths and tried to relax. Chloe stroked my cock as Aya’s thumbs brushed my nipples. The stimulation from their hands soon had me rocking back on Aya’s length impaling me.
“Ken…” Aya gasped out. “I need to move. God you are so fucking tight.” I nodded and buried my head in Chloe’s chest as Aya snapped his hips upward. I moaned with each thrust.
My hips brushed Chloe’s and our cocks rubbed together causing the both of us to moan. Aya’s small grunts as he thrust deep into my body only ratcheted my lust up even more and between the two of them I actually felt safe for the first time in weeks. Aya’s hands spanned my chest and his fingers pinched my nipples. God I was totally wrecked by the whole experience and I cried their names as I begged to be fucked harder and for Aya to go deeper. Chloe’s hands on my cock stroked in time with Aya’s pistoning hips and I just hung on for dear life.
Aya’s mouth returned to my neck as Chloe’s hands gripped my ass. They had me totally at their mercy and I knew that I wouldn’t last under this dual assault. It was Aya’s words that actually pushed me over the edge.
“Ken…missed you, love you. Love you so much.” He repeated over and over as he drove up into my body. My vision went white and I exploded all over Chloe’s hand and thighs. He practically had to hold me upright as Aya gave a few more deep thrusts as he came inside my clenching passage. I moaned his name as he licked the trail of sweat from my neck and rocked into me trying to prolong his shuddering orgasm.
“Ken… thank you for letting us get close. I missed you and I missed this.” Aya murmured in my ear as his flagging erection slipped out of me.
Aya scooted backward until he rested against the headboard and I settled between his legs gasping for breath. I watched with avid interest as Chloe licked his fingers clean of my seed. He was still hard and I realized I wanted him too…rather badly. I was tired but not nearly worn out enough.
“Chloe fuck me. I want you inside of me too.” I really wanted to feel the weight of his body bearing down on mine as he screwed me into oblivion.
He looked at me hungrily as Aya idly stroked my chest.
“Aren’t you sore? Are you sure you want me to?” Despite his words Chloe moved closer until he was kneeling between my legs.
“I don’t care. I need to be close to you.” I groaned as Aya’s hand brushed my sticky cock.
Aya held me as Chloe picked up the lube from the rumpled bedcovers and coated himself with the strawberry scented gel. The tube got tossed aside and he positioned himself against my still loose and slicked hole. I was sore though and as Chloe grabbed my thighs and sank into me I bit my lip at the discomfort. He paused uncertainly even though every instinct was telling him to screw me into the mattress. Well if it exhausted me to the point of a peaceful nights sleep I did not give a damn if I could barely walk the next day.
“Chloe do it! I’m ok and I need you too.” I arched my back and hissed as he slowly pulled most of the way out. Sweat stood out on his forehead as he slowly thrust back in. The burning ache faded as he nudged the spot that Aya had found repeatedly.
“Yes...there. Right there! Do that again.” I moaned and Chloe proved his aim was just as good as the redhead behind me. God I was fast on my way to approaching melt down again as Aya’s hand pumped my over sensitized but interested cock.
Once he got going Chloe did not hold back either as I begged and pleaded the same way I’d done with Aya. This was the kind of oblivion I was craving. I was hard again and writhing in their arms with my eyes closed. Aya’s other hand plucked and pinched my nipples as he mouthed my neck and shoulders. They staked their claim on my body and worked their way back into my soul. The place I’d tried to push them out of. With this act came a vulnerability that I’d tried to avoid. This was not just sex it was a joining of hearts and emotions. These feelings broke through my feigned wall of indifference and as I came for the second time tonight I shattered. I sobbed Aya and Chloe’s names as I shuddered in their arms.
Finally Chloe came with a loud cry and collapsed panting on my trembling body. After a moment they realized that my loss of control that left me sobbing in their arms was more than just the reaction from the intense lovemaking we’d shared. It was the release of everything I’d kept pent up inside me. Alarmed Chloe carefully pulled away and I turned in Aya’s arms and clung there. I couldn’t breathe but in great gasping breaths and I couldn't see because my eyes were blurred with tears that had been a long time coming.
“Ken did I hurt you? I’m so sorry.” Chloe knelt behind me and I vaguely heard Aya tell him that this was something I needed to do. That it was better if I got it out of my system, all of the hurt and guilt that had been my constant companion of late.
My stomach cramped at the force of my misery and I tried to burrow deeper into Aya’s arms. Chloe finally wrapped his arms around me too as we lay back on the bed. I don’t know how long I cried but I was totally exhausted when awareness returned. I was sore, sticky, my nose was running and I’m sure I got some snot on Aya’s chest. I was totally mortified and looked up at them with red, swollen eyes.
“I’m sorry…I just.” I took a shuddery breath and looked back down at the bed.
“Don’t you dare apologize Ken. You needed for this to happen. You can’t always hold all the pain inside. I ought to know.” Aya brushed my bangs back from my sweaty forehead and placed a kiss there as Chloe rubbed my back in soothing circles.
“I’m such a fucking mess. God I’m tired…I just want to rest.” I whimpered like the pathetic idiot I am.
“No bouts of self-pity Ken. I mean it. We’ll help you through this. I promise.” Chloe said as he left the bed and returned a short time later with some warm wash cloths. I was too tired to protest as I was cleaned up. Once Aya and Chloe were clean as well the cloths were tossed in the hamper and the thick comforter was pulled up and I was snuggled into their embrace.
“Just sleep Ken and we’ll sort the rest out tomorrow.” Aya whispered and softly kissed me. I turned my head and got the same reassurance from Chloe and another sweet kiss.
As my eyes drifted shut I wondered if things would ever truly be right again despite the caring attention of my lovers. Only time would tell.